Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Oh me, oh my

My innate ability to perpetuate the madness in my head never ceases to amaze me.
I’ve had to deal with myself for 32 years now and still, all I can do is shake my head disapprovingly at the defeated fragments of my former self scattered on the floor. 

There is no talking me out of the mania once my mind starts obsessively weaving its twisted web. All former memories of humiliation that deliver warning have been forgotten. Old cautionary tales told by those who have walked the same mile before me roll off my back.  I’m on a one way track to becoming a  Bon Jovi song.

Do they make a pill for this?

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Devil ain't gonna get me today

Temptation. It's hanging over me like a cursed, cheap suit these days. The kind you get at a bargain basement.The sound of it chafing is all I can hear with every stride my legs take.
Chafe,Chafe,Chafe
God, it's hot today. I can feel the dry dirt grind under my feet. It hasn't rained in days.
Sweat trickles down my back. I can taste it's salt on my lips.
I walk blinded by the sun. It's trying to hold me back. Someone turn it off please.
Chafe, Chafe, Chafe
I think I will just have a seat here, and take this blazer off.

Friday, May 20, 2011

How do you like them apples?!

When did it happen? When did the human race decide that they can say whatever they want regardless of other's feelings?
There used to be a time when you would take people's feeling into consideration!

The other day, I was at work minding my own business trying to solve a Rubik's Cube when some guy who works two floors up, who I have never spoken a single word to felt it important to distract me from my algorithms.

I wish I could remember what he said, but whatever it was, he gave me the impression that he may have had a hint in solving it.
I casually replied, "I think I am doing OK.Llook I've got my cross and now my corners are lining up!"
This guy had the audacity to say to me "Looks to me like you're looking for validation".
I KNOW!!!
Who says that to someone they DON'T know. So I say "Looks to me like you are an asshole!".
Nooooo, I didn't say that, but I wish I did...I wish I was one of those people who are always ready with zingy comebacks. Meh, who am I kidding, I am a nice person, I still would have reacted the same way.

The look on my face must have been priceless. I am assuming it was a one of bewilderment.
I unsurely replied, "Err no, I... ummm. I think I can do it?"
And then this guy says "Looks to me like you're getting defensive". Is this guy for real?! Did I just walk into the Twilight Zone?! Is this real life?
I have no idea what I said after. I think I looked at my colleague for help, but the guy spun around on his heels and left.

You know what, I may not drive a fancy car, or have some fancy job two floors up, but I am good peeps.  You man, are just a shitty run of the mill jerk! A dime a dozen!

And you know what I solved that cube, so YA how's that for Validation!



Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Sometimes a Girl's Just Gotta Let Out Her Crazy......

I feel a little crazy, like when Jennifer love Hewitts' character starts going nutty in I Know What You Did Last Summer.
Hey Jenn, I get it!

Today went down like this:

Wake up,  ohhhh I hope I see my crush today ♪  la la la  ♫
I don't know anything about him ♪  la la la  ♫
I bet he can build me a house with his bare hand, using only rocks and mud ♪ la la la ♫

"Cue the sound of glass crashing to the ground"

Eugh, he is a Wrestler...ummm I like Wrestling?!
Oh the no body hair/ all greased up/tongue sticking out/speedo wearing kind!
errrrr
Eugh, his Facebook page has Playboy and Hustlers as books he's read!
errrrr
Deep Throat and Big Tittie Zombies are his preferred movies of choice!
errrr
He has a contest "send in a neked photo of yourself and win a date with him"

Slaps hand against forehead

Couldn't he have just had a girlfriend for God sake!!!
At least he is easy to get a date with.......