Oh me, oh my

My innate ability to perpetuate the madness in my head never ceases to amaze me.

I’ve had to deal with myself for 32 years now and still, all I can do is shake my head disapprovingly at the defeated fragments of my former self scattered on the floor. 

There is no talking me out of the mania once my mind starts obsessively weaving its twisted web. All former memories of humiliation that deliver warning have been forgotten. Old cautionary tales told by those who have walked the same mile before me roll off my back.  I’m on a one way track to becoming a  Bon Jovi song.

Do they make a pill for this?

Devil ain't gonna get me today

Temptation. It's hanging over me like a cursed, cheap suit these days. The kind you get at a bargain basement.The sound of it chafing is all I can hear with every stride my legs take.
Chafe,Chafe,Chafe
God, it's hot today. I can feel the dry dirt grind under my feet. It hasn't rained in days.
Sweat trickles down my back. I can taste it's salt on my lips.
I walk blinded by the sun. It's trying to hold me back. Someone turn it off please.
Chafe, Chafe, Chafe
I think I will just have a seat here, and take this blazer off.